What's wrong with that statement? Well, everywhere includes hell!...and a whole bunch of other fun places...that also end in hell. What a mess.
For the first time in my life I feel as though I have made a 180 degree turn away from the right direction. Well, it's not sudden, it's been a dirty and turbulent, excruciatingly tasking and churning turn. Don't misinterpret my statement to mean I have been naive and now have become enlightened by a bite of the forbidden fruit. That would have sounded pretty cool, and perhaps a lot more forgiving, but it's not the case. I have always been cognizant of everything around me, I have my shares of lures, but I guess, to relate it to the title, I have always had my eyes set on Heaven, and so made conscious decisions to lead me through to that path. Nah! I've never been a saint, well not since I turned 7, but I always quickly realized what I considered errors, a lot were repeated, but again, I felt at minimum a twinge of guilt. All of that now appears to have dissipated into thin air! I have given others the power to change me and now I can feel myself stirring off course and I can't turn around. Perhaps what's worse is not that I really can't turn around, but that I don't want to. What's beautiful though is that I realize that my being bothered about not been bothered means that I have a remnant I can reawaken and rebuild. I know it sounds like an easy feat turning full circle, but ummm, there's a reason why potential energy differs from the kinetic. Knowledge empowers, but without implementation it is as good as ignorance. In essence, so what if I figured it out?
Ahhhh...(exhaling)
Truth is I am simply getting a whole bunch of crap out of my system.... One just has to wonder how long that will last.
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